I abused alcohol since I was 16 years old and it was a HUGE issue in my marriage. I don't want that to be a part of me anymore. Did I ever think of myself as an alcoholic? No. Most people abuse alcohol so it seemed normal for so many reasons. But I would drink … Continue reading 6 months sober today.
My heart aches so much when I hear about you... Self destruction. What are you doing!? If I would've stayed, Would you be on this road again!? I know that you have to be hurting deep down inside. I am. I'm happy because I am learning to truly love myself. God has saved me because … Continue reading broken heart
It's late and I should be sleeping, but reading back in my some of my journals is quite painful. I hear a girl who just wanted true love. Always searching and falling fast. I had a lot of insecurities for many years. My thoughts were full of sadness, hurt, anger and resentment. I battled with … Continue reading thoughts on my journals
Ohhh. Such deep sadness! I want to cry a thousand rivers. It hurts. I try to find the positive that surrounds me, pushing those tears away... find a smile from within. Was I attracted to goodbyes? Did I attach myself to a potential love that I knew was destructive and temporary, just to keep from truly … Continue reading run away girl
I can't keep going through this. I keep crying out to you God and when I think it's of you, it turns out not to be. I don't understand why! What is it that I am missing??? I try to follow my heart and hear you, but it's not working. Are you saying, "practice patience … Continue reading dear God…
I was bullied as a kid in a private school and I struggled with insecurities my entire life. I made a choice to get breast implants at 26 years old. I battled through years of partying... abusing drugs, alcohol and being promiscuous. I was destroyed into pieces and walls of hurt, lack of self worth … Continue reading God saved me over and over
I have been in many bad relationships in my life, mostly in my 20’s-30’s, which included mental, verbal/emotional, physical, and sexual abuse. I have had friends who had it worse, a lot worse. In 2015, a friend's sister had her precious life taken away by her much older boyfriend. In 2000, I saw a woman's … Continue reading october is domestic violence awareness month