a drive in the country, singing some tunes. the breeze flows through my windows, blowing my blonde curls around in circles. the air heats up, as the summer sun begins to get hotter. it's an end to an awesome morning. little happy times, i love my life. don't miss out on these moments, they happen … Continue reading my happy moments
thoughts on my journals
It's late and I should be sleeping, but reading back in my some of my journals is quite painful. I hear a girl who just wanted true love. Always searching and falling fast. I had a lot of insecurities for many years. My thoughts were full of sadness, hurt, anger and resentment. I battled with … Continue reading thoughts on my journals
run away girl
Ohhh. Such deep sadness! I want to cry a thousand rivers. It hurts. I try to find the positive that surrounds me, pushing those tears away... find a smile from within. Was I attracted to goodbyes? Did I attach myself to a potential love that I knew was destructive and temporary, just to keep from truly … Continue reading run away girl
dear God…
I can't keep going through this. I keep crying out to you God and when I think it's of you, it turns out not to be. I don't understand why! What is it that I am missing??? I try to follow my heart and hear you, but it's not working. Are you saying, "practice patience … Continue reading dear God…
God saved me over and over
I was bullied as a kid in a private school and I struggled with insecurities my entire life. I made a choice to get breast implants at 26 years old. I battled through years of partying... abusing drugs, alcohol and being promiscuous. I was destroyed into pieces and walls of hurt, lack of self worth … Continue reading God saved me over and over
cheating
People from all over the world have very different definitions of cheating, but once you've been cheated on it's very hard to trust again. You try so hard to, but your eyes are opened up more to lots of little things and behaviors of the opposite sex. Sometimes it's difficult to just live your life … Continue reading cheating
learning to let go
People are there for a reason at specific times in our lives. Haiti truly changed my heart and so did my divorce. My heart changed again recently when I lost my Gram. She was the most incredible woman and role model. Her death brought light upon me to show me who is really there for … Continue reading learning to let go