My heart aches so much when I hear about you…
What are you doing!?
If I would’ve stayed,
Would you be on this road again!?
I know that you have to be hurting deep down inside.
I’m happy because I am learning to truly love myself.
God has saved me because I believed.
All I every wanted was to be together as one.
To make it through this life as a family.
I feel awful because I couldn’t save you.
It kills my heart.
This is when I get mad at God…
Why!? Why are you allowing this to happen!?
The tears are endless…
This was the year I turned 40 and the first time I didn’t hear from you.
You were my soul, my everything.
“I just want you to love me!”
I loved you more than words could ever explain.
Through all of the good and horrible times…
Through my sickness, I felt like a burden.
I think you were beginning to hate me.
My heart and thoughts were changing…
I began to nag and become bitter.
I was tired of picking up the pieces over and over!
You left me once, a long time ago…
I guess it was my turn to leave this time.
The past should be the past,
But it’ll never completely go away.
I only wish the best for you
And hope you’ll one day want the same.
I still believe in you.
I hate the toxic people in your life.
I wish they cared enough,
To wake you up from this destructive behavior and addiction.
They are no better.
I pray for you…
I’m so very sorry.
A piece of my heart will forever stay broken.
My love for you will always remain unchanged.